Missing the Best!!

It is so late in night and I am really missing someone so close. I do not intend to talk about this things. But, your past life is like you own shadow. You can try to run away from your shadow, but you can not do it. You can only do it when you close yourself in dark without any contacts. I tried for that as well in the past but I can not live a life which is so purposeless and lifeless. Yes, I have to admit that half of the life is already gone with someone so near and dear. But, still I have the other half to bear with.

So, why I suddenly start writing about it today because I love as well as hate talking to some old friend because it remind you of the things which are painful. I hate the night which changed the things for forever. I even sometime wonder that how beautiful the life would have become if we could simply delete that day from the history. Life is so painful sometime. I have spent so many nights without sleep over the same thing again and again. It is a well known fact that I am suffering from insomnia because I can not forgot you for a moment when I am awake and not feeling so tired. So, I can not sleep while thinking about you. So, better not to sleep at all and do something (these days the meaning of something is only work and reading books).

I have so many nice childhood memories with you, like playing cricket, watching movies, roaming around in the streets of Kolkata and having the best brother in this world and most importantly having him as my life support for everything. I still remember that you were the first person to know about my crush and we used to make plans for hours to woo her. The plans have not changed, I still got a degree and a job to enjoy with. But, it does not matter. It does not matter when you are not here to support me and to be with me. Bhai, I have not done anything so big but I have did something what we can still talk about and enjoy. I still try to find you sometime and I still talk to you. I miss you bro and will keeping missing you till I am not reaching to you.

With Love,

Ankit

Love, Life and Dream

It happens every time. Moments comes in your life and goes. You become sad or happy. But, we always want to relive few best moments and sometime it is not possible. It is never possible to do the same things again what you have already done and moved on. Few of the time, I am utter sad by this hard fact of the life. Why we live such a life which can not give you happiness. Sometime, the definition of happiness is also not so clear and suitable.

The Love Part
I remember the day when I proposed someone very special. More specially, when I saw the most charismatic smile on her face. I really believe that I fall in love with her that day and it is happening again and again. I never stopped falling for the same girl. But sometime, loving someone is not all the things. I figured it out that having trust, charm, understanding each other and lot other thing play major part in a relationship. I am not sure if I still achieved all these big words, but I achieved the happiness which I got with every smile of her. Sometime, it is so relaxed and cool that I keep thinking about it for hours. I relish the moments of togetherness. 
I am not being the greatest of guy or the guy who do a lot of thing. I am a simple guy who can just give her immense love, care and affection. I am not sure if I can become one of the most perfect partner for her but I am sure about sure about one fact that I will become the most loved partner.

The Life
There is nothing to explain about it. So dramatic and so uncertain. Most of the people including me must have seen life as roller-coaster ride till now. Sometime, it is so nice with so many wonderful moment and at the other time, it is at reality. The life is become synonymous to my dreams and my love. I feel better to live when I think that I make any progress towards my dream.
I cannot get the perfection and not trying for it sometime. But, I want to achieve something to live with and to lo. I want to be happy, to work more, to love more and to be closer to my dreams with every passing day. This comprises of my life.

Dreams
The dreams are toughest part of all this sequences. There are so many dreams actually. Sometime with so many thoughts as well. I want to chase them every day and night, want to achieve and move on to something new. The most important of these dreams are being with the someone special and do something really cool and special for the education. These two things give me the wings, the purpose and the everything which is necessary to be there in this world.

Last Note
Being with you (the special one) and with my dreams is as necessary as living this life. There is no other way to remain happier and relaxed. Living the life is not so easy and the toughest part is that to live without you. I want to be me and be with you. Hope to find with me always. Miss you so much.

Chase your dream, live more, achieve more.

Be Happy!!